All it Takes

Instead of finding a job I’m going to rant

I have no job and no money.

Well that is a lie. I have some money in the bank but not enough to last me more than a month. I work four hours every-other weekend, which gives me money but not nearly enough.

I have applied to at least twenty different places since May of 2011. I have signed up for three separate job finding websites. I have also called close to ten different places after applying with the whole “are you hiring, can I come in for an interview” bullshit. It is always the same response “the managers not in, call at this time” or “yeah, we will put your name at the top of the pile and call you” or even “we will call you (date&time)” all of which are bullshit.

It seems that if anyone else wants a job, a week or two later they have a job. Why can’t that be me? I have shit to pay for, I don’t want to go into it too much but I owe various people close to $150 by they end of this week. I have $52 dollars in my wallet right now, which is a huge fucking accomplishment for me.

I remember three places that pissed me off the most.

AMC theaters, I applied there and they gave me the whole “call at this time” shit, I did. Then they fed me the “we will put your name at the top of the pile and call you after reviewing your application” I called once more after that then gave up.

A dog grooming place, my uncle worked there, so I had a fucking in. The week before they were to “call me” they fired him for other reasons. I called them a few times, but never got anything back.

Lastly was a deli, I applied and they said “we need someone soon so I will call you Monday” he didn’t call Monday so I called Tuesday and again Thursday and Friday. He was talking in fucking circles so I gave up.

Am I giving up to easy? Because I call a place three times before really giving up on it and moving on.  WTF am I doing wrong?

Another thing, someone I know had a job and often said to me “I can get you a job” but never did. They got their other friend a job, but not me. Then they needed a summer job and after complaining about that for about a week now works with their sister. Wonder how that happened?

Instead of finding a job I have just posted a rant. Yay me.

Everyone chooses someone over me.

I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.

(Source: anntrannn, via mrchristopherrobin)

Fuck. My “real age” is 15.7 where as I myself am about 18.8. Wow.